Love lost or gained?

So I have not written very much over the past 2 weeks. I have been ill and partly lazy. Well I have been thinking about something, well someone for a while. I have just been trying to process my life and my feelings over the past few days. I know soul searching can be so passe but I think I may be onto something and as these things often involve there is love or the possibility of such.

Image from the film "Shelter" 

So there is this guy that I started having feelings for about a year ago. Oh no you are saying, this is another one of those sad fag love stories. Anyway, so this guy is the type that girls swoon over and I said to myself that I would not fall into the trap and just ignore him. He had a girlfriend back home and had crucifix in his room so I knew he was off limits. But then I realised over a few months that he actually was an insightful, kind, caring, sweet guy and then my heart started beating faster around him.

We we in a course together and so we talked about stuff sometimes. I liked just talking to him sometimes because he made me feel better when I was really stressed out. He would just smile and say everything will be alright, "don't worry you'll get through". I looked forward to just seeing him and looking into his big brown eyes.

After some time I got him one time and we sat and talked about life. I realised he never talked about his girlfriend and even when I asked he didn't really have very much to say and didn't seem to care whether things with her went north or south. So I took a chance and asked to take his picture. I got up close to him and really tried to get a sense of him.

I looked him in the eye and I told him he had strong features. I began to touch his face as I pointed out his beautiful eyes, his cute nose, high cheek bones, soft full lips and strong jaw. I asked him if he was uncomfortable and he said no. At that moment in my nervousness I began to mutter some artistic bullshit about not seeing just people but really seeing pieces that make up the whole person. I struggled in the back of my mind as to whether I should kiss him or not. But I choked.

I still think about that moment and realise that he may have had feelings for me too. Some time later we were talking and he said that he thought I was really smart and I complimented him on his deep hard hitting questions in class. I said to myself, fuck! I messed up...I missed my chance with a Prince.

But rationalizing things now I say to myself that he probably was confused about some things and me kissing him may have pushed him on the edge. I remember asking him what his greatest fear was. He replied saying, "letting everyone down and being a disappointment." That really spoke to me because I have a similar fear after being under immense pressure and mounting expectations over the years. So because I cared about him so much I did not throw his world out of wack by kissing him tenderly.

I moved on somewhat to continue my studies, we speak on the telephone every now and then but I think I ought to do something next time I see him. I think he and his long distance girlfriend may have ended their partnership and my boy may be mine yet. I suppose the worse thing that could happen is that he could just say he's not gay. If I don't do anything I may forever wonder what if. Well whatever I do I hope I can at least just be honest and true to myself. At least I think he likes the photos I did of him, he has them displayed online.

I really wish I could hold his hand and pull him close to me and just...be.

LIBs

Review - Shelter

Well I just finished watching "Shelter" a really great film about growing up and making decisions for oneself and taking charge of your life path.

                 

Synopsis

Forced to give up his dreams of art school in order to take care of his family, Zach (Trevor Wright) has become accustomed to a life where he neglects his own needs in favor of taking care of his older sister, Jeanne (Tina Holmes) and his nephew, Cody. When his best friend’s older brother, Shaun (Brad Rowe), returns home to cure a case of writer’s block, Shaun and Zach develop a friendship that develops into a true, intimate relationship. Shaun presses Zach to take control of his life, and to take ownership of his artwork. He also develops a strong bond with Cody, and Zach happily notices the positive effect Shaun’s attention has on him. As time progresses, however, a host of new issues come up. Zach struggles with his identity, his family, and friends, while trying to understand the new emotions Shaun has brought into his life. When the cat is let out of the bag, Jeanne threatens to take Cody away. Wanting nothing but the best for him, Zach is forced to decide between his pattern of always putting others’ desires first or fighting for what is really most important and appropriate for both his and Cody’s future.

“With an outstanding script expertly brought to life through stellar performances and striking cinematography, Shelter is a gorgeous, captivating film that is, at its heart, a story about family."

- Kirsten Schaffer, OUTFEST.

Watch the Trailer

I really identified with the main character Zach who is torn between his family and moving ahead with his life. Although I am living away from home I still feel the pressure to conform and deny myself what I truly need in my life. I feel a but sad at this point because I have not done very much of what I really want to do with my life. I live hundreds of miles away across the ocean and I still feel the need to be the perfect son and brother.

I think this film really gives a good, honest examination of a situations that many young people face even if it is set in southern California. But I live in the Caribbean which ought to be some paradise yet it is far from it. The performances of the actors were sincere and not overly dramatic. Also, the love affair between the main characters seemed organic and not forced or contrived or overly sexual as many GLBT films tend to be at times. And not to give away the ending I am most pleased that it did not end in tragedy.

The only downside to this film for me is that despite the fact that it gave me a hopeful vibe it made me feel very isolated and alone all at the same time. I hope I can find someone to love me unconditionally despite my flaws and not just because of sex. 

So all in all I think this was a good film that explores issues ranging from coming out to socioeconomic status and even parenting skills. I give this film 5 out of 5 (5/5) Stars!!!

Watch "Shelter" Now!

LIBs

Change

I wanted to wait a few days before I posted about Barack Obama's resounding victory at the polls in the US to gain some perspective for myself instead of posting an emotional self serving monologue. So I will just say these few words.

                    

This week was indeed one for the history books filled with triumphs and promises of change along with the denial of rights. The first black American President yet the most liberal of all US states bans gay marriage.

The world is changing yet one thing seems to stay as static as the necessity of cyclic change. However, the thing I think we ought to take away from it all is that despite what people may believe or accept that change can indeed come. If one of the most judgemental, label driven, institutionally racist nations can elect Obama, a biracial citizen, then change can come in even the most intolerant of places.

I firmly believe that as a global leader the US can affect change by example. As a child I saw them as a shining star now as an adult I began to see them as a form of pestilence that afflicted the earth. Now at this point I will give the USA a second chance to clean up its act and return to its former glory. If they do not purge their ill ways I believe they will take the entire world down with them. So for this reason I am hoping that Mr. Barack H. Obama can turn things around.

I feel that Mr. Obama will emerge as one of the greatest Presidents of all time. He has all the tools and assets as well as the perspective to become a political force unlike we've seen in our generation.

So what this whole thing means to me is that out of adversity ascends greatness and the path to such greatness lives within us all. If we can strip away all the fluff that society uses to infringe upon our humanity then our true greatness can indeed echo throughout eternity. Now in the words of Barack H. Obama, now one of the great leaders of the world. YES WE CAN!

Believe It! Achieve It! Live It!

LIBs

I Declare War Against Fatness

I have a problem. I am getting fat and I am eating fried plantain chips right at this moment. I have to get off my ass and get to working this fat pad that is developing across my tummy. I keep telling myself that after this exam I will control my eating and exercise. I need someone to be on my back I need that someone to be me.

This has brought me to the point of trying to understand why I make poor food choices and why I feel the need to fill a void with comfort food as they call them.

Lately, I have found myself very disenchanted by school and I have no personal life to redirect my frustrations. So I have been sublimating my feelings of emptiness into the making and consumption of foods such as sweets and baked goods. I must say that carbohydrates really are the devil. The glucose you get from them in short periods can make you feel sooooo good inside until it is converted to fat and your ass gets larger and large like mine has become.

I have been unable to fit into articles of clothing that I wear everyday. I am not a big guy so extra weight shows in my face and in my hips within a few weeks. The fact that I am constantly under stress and in need of comfort that I cannot get from other sources I turn to food. Every time I try to restrict my intake I have a bad week that turns me into a neurotic melodramatic person riddled with guilt after the consumption of something that comes with a side of french fries. Then things are all downhill from there.

So I would like to put a stop to this all before the dreaded holiday season of endless temptation and guilt begins and I end up in denial like this kitty. (Just as soon as I finish this last bag of chips. Damn You Exams!!!)

              

LIBs

Another Early Morning Post

It is almost 1am and I am sitting around naked after a long day of studying. I really wish that I could focus a bit more on just being alive and just existing. I wanted to come up with something good to post here but my life is a bit dull.

I sit in the dark alone sometimes to think and sometimes I am not sure if I want to know my own thoughts. I make some strange associations and come up with some pretty strange thoughts at times but I suppose that is all part of being a little eccentric.

Maybe not as eccentric as my dearly loved Icelandic diva Bjork but eccentric nonetheless.

                        

LIBs

Young Adulthood...a 20 something's thoughts

Another morning, another day to ponder why I chose my path. Don't you hate it when as soon as you get to sleep the morning just sneaks up on you yet again. I really wish I could sleep in more often than just 1 day a week. I really wish I could just not go in today but I already used a sick day this week. I really don't like having responsibilities and having to do things I don't really want to do but do them anyway because they have done. Having bills sucks! lol

Oh well at least I can appreciate a wine spritzer from time to time to colour my world. But when you have no love life and your Friday nights consist of...gosh I don't know what I do on Friday nights!

Guys I need an intervention! Unfortunately this is not Bravo or MTV or TLC or whatever so a team of tv experts with life coaches and fashion consults aren't going to to spring out from behind the sofa to save my life. I have to do it on my own and its hard. They definitely did not tell me it would take this long and I would be this lonely all the time...whoever did not deliver my memo on that should be fired!

I am not convinced that the sacrifices (which only become greater as you advance) one has to make in order to become the professional the world always told you was best are worth it. In closing, since I must garner some sort of nutrition now before I head to the hell hole, being an adult sucks ass face.

 

LIBs

Moving Ahead...one coke at a time

Well I guess I am supposed to make some smart comment on my life as a lonely perpetual student in some far flung corner of the world where I cannot be myself. But I think I may need to tone down my fear induced anger in order to grow and change as a person.

I told myself that I would write a sincere blog about my true thoughts and I have been writing totally contrived diatribes about myself living in a world which I hold such contempt for. So I think I will be a but more honest and maybe I can use this blog as a means of venting my frustration and maybe be a catalyst for change.

I almost completely certain that this blog is being read by approximately 0 people which should probably make it easy to do. But I have a deep seated fear of being identified but I mean how egotistical of me to even imagine that someone would waste their time to learn the identity and dwelling place of a blogger who operates a blog which has 0 readers.

So today, although I felt like total crap for the majority of the day, it all improved with a bottle of coke and some foul tasting imitation chocolate thingy well mostly the Coca Cola. 

Who knew that a carbonated beverage could improve your quality of life while slowly killing you inside. I think this is one of the great ironies of life but I will pretend that it is the best damn thing since psychoactive drugs! Oh wait it is!!!

LIBs

Note to self

Okay so I've been sort of ignoring this blog for some months and promising myself that I would post more and more and develop myself. But I have been too lazy to type anything and then complain about my life being too boring. Hope fully I can overcome this force of mediocrity and enjoy life.

I hate you

I hate you for caring so much

I hate you for being so understanding and so fucking astute

I hate you for being such a doormat and the occasional narcissist

You are such a cunt sometimes you better just forget about even trying sometimes

You waste your time with buggers you don’t even like

Come on we all know you don’t even like yourself…

You are so weak for never fighting for what you ought to and too stupid to know what to fight for indeed. You are not fat despite actually being so sometimes and no one cares if you are anyway. Just stop being such a fucking punk!

Drifter

Floating along down the bends of life

Not quite sure the purpose or the method

Drifting through time and the illusions of life

Threading water in an ocean of hurt, a sea of expectation

 

Waiting for a moment of clarity to come along

A piece of driftwood, a shred of dignity, a sight of hope

A long lost love, a friend, intimacy, truth, peace

Trying not to go under, struggling in fear

 

Then I see it in the distance, the thing I need most to survive

But yet it eludes me, why?

Currents so strong, so fierce, unwavering, yet I stand defiant

I struggle and grab hold and finally find rest for a mere moment, as it all falls apart

 

I’d like to tell myself it served its purpose well

Even if just for a few fleeting moments of rest

Saved momentarily by one as battered

But it is only a lie, a means to lessen the blow of the loss of my sunken ship

 

Constant reminders of a complicated past masquerading as hope for the future.

HOT Music: Sam Sparro

I love Electro-Pop as you can probably tell. I just found out about this cool artist Sam Sparro on iTunes the other day and really got to loving his song Black and Gold. If you've been reading before I took a break I tend to be ahead of the rest in terms of music. I told you about The Ting Tings and Leona Lewis who have taken the world by storm.

 

Sam Sparro

Sam Sparro (born Sam Falson on 8 November 1982) is a producer, songwriter and performer, and former child actor. His stage name was originally a family nickname which came from the Australian radio mascot Sammy Sparrow. He is signed to UK-based record label, Island Records.

He is a super hot, talented, openly gay (already taken sorry fellas) artist. The video is very creative I love it. I love me some Sam I am downloading the album as we speak! For more info visit http://www.samsparro.com  Anyway, here is the video for Black & Gold by Sam Sparro.

PEREZ YOU FUCKER!

As if the J.C. Chasez thing wasn't enough, once again Perez Hilton is stirring up trouble the only things he knows how by posting on this on this blog yesterday. It is alleged that Gossip Girl stars and roommates Chace Crawford and Ed Westwick are gay lovers and were seen kissing in Crawford's trailer on set.

                    

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Well yesterday (Friday 27th June) was Ed's birthday and apparently Chace suddenly canceled and was unable to attend Ed's birthday party in Las Vegas on Friday. I think it is horrible that these guys can't even be regular guys with roommates without all this speculation.

Ed Westwick

Personally I do not believe that they are gay. But one of two things:

Ed Westwick and Chace Crawford

1. Perez got paid to plant this story to stir a firestorm of spectulaiton and interest for the next seaon of Gossip Girl. Based on what has been said the CW is in desperate need of monster ratings to stay afloat next season.

2. They are in love and are together in a relationship and Perez is shitting all over their happiness. In this case I think it is very unfair to them to have their privacy invaded like this and then pushing them forgoe being together at such a special time.

In either case Perez you should be ashmed you Media Whore! Just because no one cares who you're dating doesn't mean you can't be happy for others and must always cause people pain. I know I keep going back to Perez Hilton's site but I think that of late Perez is planting too many stories and is not doing the great detective work that he used to do in the past.

Anyways Happy Birthday Ed! I can't wait for the next season of Gossip Girl! Chace don't let Perez get to you he is just jealous because he can't get you! lol

LIBs

Sad state of affairs...Jamaican PM Speaks

The state of mind of many in the Caribbean...Here is a video of a now infamous BBC interview of Jamaican Prime Minister Bruce Golding. Despite Jamaica's spiraling economic difficulties and rampant large scale organized criminal activity the PM here is fixated on the exclusion of gays from mainstream society.


Bruce Golding - BBC Hard Talk Pt. 1


Bruce Golding - BBC Hard Talk Pt. 2


Bruce Golding - BBC Hard Talk Pt. 3

LIBs

Been A Long Time...

It has been a long time and I am not quite sure if I was tired of life or just swamped by work but I have not blogged in quite a while. I am have been experiencing some depression and have been trying to take steps to address this issue with minimal success. I fall in love too easily and give my heart and my body to those who do not love me and ignore those who do. I am not quite sure why I seem to push people away so easily and embrace those who want me the least. However this is my existence and I hope I can improve.

Why is it so difficult to get what you truly need and not just what you want. I think I may just have to go for it head on without caring what anyone thinks. I recently told a guy that was in my life very briefly that I liked him on the advice of a friend and it turned out the feelings were not reciprocated yet again. He is nice to me but the truth is I will never see him again as he goes back to where he lives. Such is the life of those that live in paradise. The young handsome knight you wish to come and rescue you from a life of loneliness and resentment always returns to his real life and forgets all about you. Should I even try?

Lacking Yet Moving Forward

What shall I speak about today? I have no idea I suppose I should make a personal entry. I am sic and tired of being marginalized and limited by my sexuality or fear of what others think about it. I am sick and tired of fucking ignorant people! Sometimes I really feel like kicking some people in the mouth when they start to spew hate speak.

I am also quite fed up with life in the Caribbean. Being gay in the Caribbean really really sucks. No matter how much you try to move past issues regarding sexuality you get stuck. Right now I am at a point where I would like to be true to myself and let the people I care about know the real me but I am still hesitant. Depression is very real for me and I live in it everyday. I play pretend like nothing is wrong and try to be the funny, happy guy but there is only so long one can carry on like this before the mask begins to erode.

Slowly you become trapped deeper and deeper into the shell of a person you know are aren't. You pretend so much that you no longer know who you really are anymore. I just want someone to love me despite of all my flaws and because of the person I really am. I am a cynic but I am an idealist at heart but I only really desire someone where things just feel right. It does not have to be perfect but as long as there is love and respect I will be happy.

I suppose I just need to relax and just breathe but I am having difficulty doing that because I am miserable! Men make me miserable. But I rather be discontent in being true to myself than absolutely and utterly inconsolable unhappy and lost living a lie.

LIBs

My New Favorite Band! The Ting Tings

So the other night I was watching the brand new Mercedes-Benz Music Magazine and found this great new band out of Salford, Manchester, England. They are called The Ting Tings and they are just awesome! This is fun electronic music that reminds you how great it is to be young despite all that is going on in the world.

 

The Ting Tings are a duo consisting of member Jules De Martino (drums, vocals) and Katie White (vocals, guitar, bass drum). Their eclectic electronic indie pop is infectious. They formed in 2006 performing at private parties at the Islington Mill, a converted cotton mill where the band lives with lots of other artists (painters, photographers, underground filmmakers, etc). I know it sounds soo bohemian and cool!

They are have been riding a wave of success ever since landing in at number 3 on the BBC's 2008 New Music Poll. They were recently singed to Columbia Records (UK) and their debut album is due out in May 2008. I can't stop listening to this track! I need more TING TINGS!

The Ting Tings - That's Not My Name

The Ting Tings - Great DJ

I bought their first single for "Great DJ" on iTunes and I suggest you do the same right now! What are you waiting on click that button and BUY IT!

Links:

www.myspace.com/thetingtings

http://www.mercedes-benz.tv/?lang=en&type=channel&id=8&clipId=365&csref=mbtv_ws_mbtv0107_en_channel_8_365_url

 

Leona Lewis

I first heard about Leona in the fall of 2007 and have been a fan ever since. I was captivated by her performances on the UK talent show "X-Factor" that I was fortunate to view through the power of YouTube. I think that she is a great talent and is singing with very good breath control and such great tone and clarity. The strength in her voice along with her interpretation and delivery with such poise and undeniable presence is stuff of musical dreams.

Leona Lewis performing a stirring rendition of "I Will Always Love You"

Remarks made by threatened singers that Leona is a "poor man's Mariah" are totally unwarranted and unfair. She has not just appeared on the scene Leona has been training and working on her craft from her early teens. I am very glad that she has the support of Simon Cowell and Clive Davis two titans of the music industry. They took their time and produced an album of good music not a mediocre get rich quick scheme. Must I remind everyone that Clive Davis developed non other than the great Whitney Houston herself and more recently Alicia Keys.

Great singers must be placed in the hands of producers capable of truly showcasing the instrument, the voice. I am just getting the feeling of early Mariah Carey with Leona like you know when you have a good feeling about something this is it. My prediction is that Leona will win the Grammy for Best New Artist in 2009. The stars are aligning and a future Diva is about to get her wings.

Here is Leona Lewis' first single "Bleeding Love" off her debut album "Spirit" which has already sold 2.5 million units worldwide since it was released in November 2007 in the UK. Spirit is due drop on April 8, 2008 in the US on J Records/Syco. The play count on my iTunes for this song is 120 times sooo you can say I kind of like it. lol Here is the UK verision of the video with over 31 Million Views on YouTube. (I prefer this version)  

Here is the US Video...

Leona singing Live on UK television...

Music Video Time

Here are some music videos that I really like. Have a look and let me know what you think!

First up is the Divine Goddess herself Mimi with her fantastically fun video for her new single "Touch My Body." Mariah really delivers are great performance here this is one of my absolute favorite videos of the past 5 years. It is so fun and definitely Mimi come on she has a unicorn in it! I love it!

 

Here is the new single by Goldfrapp entiled "A&E" off their recently released album Seventh Tree. This video strikes be as a what you would imagine if you were high on acid or chronically sleep deprived like me. You have to watch it it is very basic and simple but very creative and fun to watch.

 

Now here is a flashback to 1991 for what I consider to be one of the best music video ever created directed by the incredible Herb Ritts. It is "Wicket Game" by Chris Isaak. The artistry in the video really inspires me every time I watch it. This video has been copied by like the likes of Paris Hilton who did not display near the artistic quality or sensual power. Notice their lips never touch and it is so erotic and so sensual.

New Janet...Ms. Jackson If Ya Nasty!

This is the video for Janet's new single "Rock With You" from her new #1 selling album Discipline. I love the mellow electronic vibe it is great! The lighting and styling in this video is just beautiful! I've got this one on repeat how about you?

"Strobe lights make everything sexier!"

Fashion

I love fashion especially the classics from great photographers like Irving Penn and Herb Ritts. My favorites are Steven Klein and Annie Leibovitz who are absolutely amazing.

Spring/Summer 2008 D&G Ad Campaign shot by Steven Klein

One word...STUNNING! I think Dolce & Gabbana has the best fashion ads of all they are always fresh and just whimsical true art. The ads often seem like Renaissance period art or ultra modern chic and really speak to me. They really do portray a lifestyle of sensual awareness and living life to the fullest.

LIBs

The Return of LIBs

Good Morning World! I have not been able to make any new posts because I am too caught up studying my tail off for exams that seem to mean nothing to me. But being up for 20 hours a day probably means that I do care about it or that I am forced to care out of guilt or something of the sort.

I have been trawling the internet looking for new people to meet but I have not been successful. Apparently all the good looking intelligent people have left the planet! Send Help!

Where have all the good men gone? I am one of them but it seems like we are in sort supply very short supply. I am trying to be honest with myself about who I am but it seems everyone else is just going through the motions and hoping to just go through life unchanged. It's a journey it is gonna be good it is gonna be bad it's gonna make you sick most of the time. But it is important for us to acknowledge who we are in order to actually be happy. I am still working on it and hope you are too.

LIBs

Rihanna at the 2008 Brits

Oh my Godness Ms. Rihanna at the Brit Awards in London last night and I must say this girl is on fire! Celebrating her 20th Bday the other day Rihanna is just glowing! Gorgeous! Lovely!
Here is her performance from the Brits and this is an amazing collaboration with Rihanna and the UK band The Klaxons. Brilliant lighting everything is just spectacular!

Coming Out...

Well today turned out to be pretty decent. I came out to a friend today...I did not intend to do so but it just happened and it was very positive. In fact she was more nervous than I was! lol But I found out that her little sister is gay and happy in a relationship. I was like wow! I had no idea about it. Happiness is really something that does not just happen over night you have to work on it and improve each day.

So I have finally taken steps to secure my happiness by being honest for a change. I know not everyone will be as supportive but I have 1 more friend that I know is really a friend!

New Paula Abdul Video

Choreography is hott with this one! But seems little AI cheesey but good non the less.

Sexy Talk

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Marcus Patrick

Marcus Patrick was born in Bath, England. His father was of English, Irish, and French descendance. His mother was born of Jamaican, Cuban, and Cherokee descendance. He is the middle child and has two sisters.

I heard about Marcus last year after the Playgirl debacle. He is orgasmic! Everytime I see this man I quiver. He is gorgeous and lord knows the things I would do to/for him! He is bisexual and unashamed! He is like the ideal man he can act, sing, dance and he is hung! Maybe in another time or place we could be together. In my dreams! lol

Visit his website www.marcus-patrick.com

Myspace http://MySpace.com/MarcusPatrick

LIB LIfe

I had an interesting day yesterday...I found out that a friend of mine is getting married this summer, theater people really are bitches and that I am great boyfriend material. I have been experiencing some emotional instability lately. Emotional instability in the exhausted, lonely, need a vacation way not in the psychotic way.

I was talking to a friend and I noticed something on this shirt that I could not stop starting at. It looked like cum on his shirt. Yes a string of cum on his shirt. I did not know whether or not to ask him about it. I thought in my head that I could have helped him out if he needed to get off. But I decided against it although I could not stop staring at his lips.

I have been quite horny and have been thinking about another guy I have been fantasizing about from the first day I met him 5 months ago. I know he is unavailable and probably not even sexually interested in men. His eyes are just so magnetic and I can't stop thinking about him! It is ridiculous! I think he is a closeted devout Catholic boy that is waiting for me to make a move on him. I am so afraid that he will not be receptive to my advances. I was close to kissing him once when we were alone and I was touching his face telling him how nice his features were but I chickened out. DAMN It! I should have done it but oh well.

LIBs

Staying Sane on Valentines Day

So it is that time of the year again...Valentines Day. I have to say that I've never actually had a particularly Happy Vday and this year is no different. I am sure my mom will be my Valentine again as she says she will always be. She really does not understand what it feels like to be marginalized and made to feel less of a person because of an attribute you happen to posses. I suppose it is too much for her to want to deal with emotionally since she has so many other things to handle.

I am still waiting for the prince of my heart to come along and make himself known. I suppose if I disappear for today I could not been seen alone but it won't change the fact that I am alone. I really do try to amuse myself and try to fulfill my needs. I really wonder if one person in particular even has a clue that I find him incredibly attractive, intelligent and insightful. Everytime I look at him I see so many things but unfortunately he is not mine to have. I try to make sense of all this emotional turmoil and still try to be prudent in my actions. But I really feel that I am missing out on love.

So this Valentine's Day I would like to say to everyone out there who is weary, afraid, alone or misunderstood that life is worth living and no matter how many times your heart has been ripped to shreds you are not alone. I stand in solidarity with the lonely, the mistreated, the alienated and myself because loving yourself first and each other is the way to bring peace to this world. I will try to keep blogging not because I have an ego or a big mouth but because I want to help make a impact out there. I hope I can reach some people in less enlightened areas such as mine to let them know they are not alone and we can both work things out together.

To end on a lighter note (I think) Here is Kanye West's new video for Flashing Lights...I suppose love really can hurt.

LIBs

Touch My Body B. Scott

B. Scott = Hottness!

Here is something a little different. This is a video by one of my absolute favorite you tubers out there B. Scott! Dancing to Mariah Carey's hot new single Touch My Body. He is Splendiferous! I love me some B. Scott he is off the charts. Okay I am outing myself as a Love Muffin! I love B. Scott! Visit Love B. Scott Online Today!

B. Scott in Action

Don't Fuck With Mimi!

Mariah's new single Touch My Body has hit the airwaves and there are already casualties to report. A number of blogs that have posted the song have been hit with deletion by blogger. Many blogs were deleted today within minutes after posting Mimi's new silky smooth tune. This is an aggressive move to stop internet leaks but it is sending shockwaves through the music blog community. I have heard the song and it is pretty fresh! I LOVE MC! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

But I ain't gonna cross her on this one! I can't wait to buy E=MC² I will pre-order my copy as soon the option is available.

LIBs

Mariah Carey Announces New Album Title MC²

Mariah Carey announced today that her upcoming album, will now be called E=MC² instead of the previously announced That Girl. The forthcoming album will be Mariah's 11th studio album, the follow-up to 2005's Global smash The Emancipation of Mimi.

Touch My Body - Single SOURCE

Official Cover - MariahCarey.com

New new single Touch My Body is due to be released simultaneously on radio stations and online @ 6:30pm EST today! I can say that I am super super excited I feel like I am going to explode all over the walls! I absolutely love Mariah Carey I own every single album. I am indeed a lamb I stood by her during the Glitter years and will continue to stand by the divine goddess deity that is Mariah Carey.

New W Magazine Cover

Scarlett Johansson and Natalie Portman

Natalie Portman

I have to say that the new cover of W Magazine is off the charts! Scarlett Johansson and Natalie Portman together! Orgasmic! These two gorgeous talented ladies embody what it really means to be young Hollywood. They certainly have the potential to be major superstars in the future. They were photographed by amazing photographer Steven Klein. Check out the article HERE

Anybody Out There?

Well I have only been blogging here for a few months and really would like to get some feedback from any readers that I may have. I changed the layout of the blog what do you think? I am appealing to anyone out there that may be reading to say hello because LIB is really lonely for real. Send me the love...and I will keep blogging for you.

Muah!

Feedback Please!

I need some feedback if anyone is reading this shizz. Leave a comment or e-mail me caribislandboy@gmail.com.

Amy Amy Amy!

Amy embracing her mother after winning Record of the Year

I know posted about Amy Winehouse at the Grammys but I would like to offer congratulations to her on winning not one, not two, not three but FIVE Grammy awards. It seems almost that people are not giving her as much praise for her work as they ought to because of her personal issues. But it cannot be denied that Amy is a musical force to be reckoned.

Ree Ree Takes Home Grammy Gold

Congratulations to Rihanna on winning her first Grammy! She won for Grest Rap/Sung Collaboration for Umbrella feat. Jay-Z. The night was not all great for her though it is being reported that the Barbadian singer was involved in a fender bender after leaving the Island Def-Jam post-Grammy party. Sources say that soon after she enter her waiting car it was hit by another vehicle. She was unharmed in the mishap and of course still beautiful!

Here is Rihanna's performance from last years MTV Awards

Rihanna's current single Don't Stop the Music

Amy Winehouse Grammy Performance

First of all let me say how much I dearly love Amy Winehouse and her music. I am posting this video because there is irony on so many levels. Here Amy is singing Rehab "they tried to make me go to rehab and I said No, no, no!" while in rehab. I am sure she was accompanied by her nurse from rehab as well. Her husband Blake is incarcerated, she had her US visa denied then granted and she is going through withdrawal and still went on stage and did her thing and won! Such honestly and genuine passion is great to witness especially with have fakers like Beyonce in this world. Amy I love you please get well! I have to see you in concert sometime!

"This is for London!" Amy Winehouse

Obama has big weekend! Miss Hillary is Shacking in her pumps!

Obama swept the elections against Clinton this weekend securing as much as 90% of the vote in some areas! This has sent shockwaves through the Clinton camp and has resulted in the appointment of a new campaign manager. I don't want to say this but Hilary dumped her Latina manager in favor of a Black woman. They want to stop the rumors of Clinton racism by appointing their longtime aide Williams to the top post in the campaign. Smart Clintons but we already see through you...you are such opportunists!

Out - Patti Solis Doyle

IN - Margaret "Maggie" Williams

Not only did Barack Obama sweep the democratic primaries and caucuses this weekend but he also won a Grammy! Senator Obama won the Grammy for Best Spoken Word Album for his #1 New Times Bestseller " The Audacity Of Hope: Thoughts On Reclaiming The American Dream." He beat out non other than Bill Clinton for the award. He is proving yet again that he and his message is getting out there and this is only just the beginning of even greater things in the future. I love Barack Obama he is hot! I know his wife must thank God for his fine, brilliant ass everyday! lol Anyways but Seriously You Go Barack!

The Recording Academy certainly believes in Mr. Obama maybe you should too...