I have a problem. I am getting fat and I am eating fried plantain chips right at this moment. I have to get off my ass and get to working this fat pad that is developing across my tummy. I keep telling myself that after this exam I will control my eating and exercise. I need someone to be on my back I need that someone to be me.
This has brought me to the point of trying to understand why I make poor food choices and why I feel the need to fill a void with comfort food as they call them.
Lately, I have found myself very disenchanted by school and I have no personal life to redirect my frustrations. So I have been sublimating my feelings of emptiness into the making and consumption of foods such as sweets and baked goods. I must say that carbohydrates really are the devil. The glucose you get from them in short periods can make you feel sooooo good inside until it is converted to fat and your ass gets larger and large like mine has become.
I have been unable to fit into articles of clothing that I wear everyday. I am not a big guy so extra weight shows in my face and in my hips within a few weeks. The fact that I am constantly under stress and in need of comfort that I cannot get from other sources I turn to food. Every time I try to restrict my intake I have a bad week that turns me into a neurotic melodramatic person riddled with guilt after the consumption of something that comes with a side of french fries. Then things are all downhill from there.
So I would like to put a stop to this all before the dreaded holiday season of endless temptation and guilt begins and I end up in denial like this kitty. (Just as soon as I finish this last bag of chips. Damn You Exams!!!)
LIBs
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