It has been a long time and I am not quite sure if I was tired of life or just swamped by work but I have not blogged in quite a while. I am have been experiencing some depression and have been trying to take steps to address this issue with minimal success. I fall in love too easily and give my heart and my body to those who do not love me and ignore those who do. I am not quite sure why I seem to push people away so easily and embrace those who want me the least. However this is my existence and I hope I can improve.
Why is it so difficult to get what you truly need and not just what you want. I think I may just have to go for it head on without caring what anyone thinks. I recently told a guy that was in my life very briefly that I liked him on the advice of a friend and it turned out the feelings were not reciprocated yet again. He is nice to me but the truth is I will never see him again as he goes back to where he lives. Such is the life of those that live in paradise. The young handsome knight you wish to come and rescue you from a life of loneliness and resentment always returns to his real life and forgets all about you. Should I even try?
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