Lacking Yet Moving Forward

What shall I speak about today? I have no idea I suppose I should make a personal entry. I am sic and tired of being marginalized and limited by my sexuality or fear of what others think about it. I am sick and tired of fucking ignorant people! Sometimes I really feel like kicking some people in the mouth when they start to spew hate speak.

I am also quite fed up with life in the Caribbean. Being gay in the Caribbean really really sucks. No matter how much you try to move past issues regarding sexuality you get stuck. Right now I am at a point where I would like to be true to myself and let the people I care about know the real me but I am still hesitant. Depression is very real for me and I live in it everyday. I play pretend like nothing is wrong and try to be the funny, happy guy but there is only so long one can carry on like this before the mask begins to erode.

Slowly you become trapped deeper and deeper into the shell of a person you know are aren't. You pretend so much that you no longer know who you really are anymore. I just want someone to love me despite of all my flaws and because of the person I really am. I am a cynic but I am an idealist at heart but I only really desire someone where things just feel right. It does not have to be perfect but as long as there is love and respect I will be happy.

I suppose I just need to relax and just breathe but I am having difficulty doing that because I am miserable! Men make me miserable. But I rather be discontent in being true to myself than absolutely and utterly inconsolable unhappy and lost living a lie.

LIBs

My New Favorite Band! The Ting Tings

So the other night I was watching the brand new Mercedes-Benz Music Magazine and found this great new band out of Salford, Manchester, England. They are called The Ting Tings and they are just awesome! This is fun electronic music that reminds you how great it is to be young despite all that is going on in the world.

 

The Ting Tings are a duo consisting of member Jules De Martino (drums, vocals) and Katie White (vocals, guitar, bass drum). Their eclectic electronic indie pop is infectious. They formed in 2006 performing at private parties at the Islington Mill, a converted cotton mill where the band lives with lots of other artists (painters, photographers, underground filmmakers, etc). I know it sounds soo bohemian and cool!

They are have been riding a wave of success ever since landing in at number 3 on the BBC's 2008 New Music Poll. They were recently singed to Columbia Records (UK) and their debut album is due out in May 2008. I can't stop listening to this track! I need more TING TINGS!

The Ting Tings - That's Not My Name

The Ting Tings - Great DJ

I bought their first single for "Great DJ" on iTunes and I suggest you do the same right now! What are you waiting on click that button and BUY IT!

Links:

www.myspace.com/thetingtings

http://www.mercedes-benz.tv/?lang=en&type=channel&id=8&clipId=365&csref=mbtv_ws_mbtv0107_en_channel_8_365_url

 

Leona Lewis

I first heard about Leona in the fall of 2007 and have been a fan ever since. I was captivated by her performances on the UK talent show "X-Factor" that I was fortunate to view through the power of YouTube. I think that she is a great talent and is singing with very good breath control and such great tone and clarity. The strength in her voice along with her interpretation and delivery with such poise and undeniable presence is stuff of musical dreams.

Leona Lewis performing a stirring rendition of "I Will Always Love You"

Remarks made by threatened singers that Leona is a "poor man's Mariah" are totally unwarranted and unfair. She has not just appeared on the scene Leona has been training and working on her craft from her early teens. I am very glad that she has the support of Simon Cowell and Clive Davis two titans of the music industry. They took their time and produced an album of good music not a mediocre get rich quick scheme. Must I remind everyone that Clive Davis developed non other than the great Whitney Houston herself and more recently Alicia Keys.

Great singers must be placed in the hands of producers capable of truly showcasing the instrument, the voice. I am just getting the feeling of early Mariah Carey with Leona like you know when you have a good feeling about something this is it. My prediction is that Leona will win the Grammy for Best New Artist in 2009. The stars are aligning and a future Diva is about to get her wings.

Here is Leona Lewis' first single "Bleeding Love" off her debut album "Spirit" which has already sold 2.5 million units worldwide since it was released in November 2007 in the UK. Spirit is due drop on April 8, 2008 in the US on J Records/Syco. The play count on my iTunes for this song is 120 times sooo you can say I kind of like it. lol Here is the UK verision of the video with over 31 Million Views on YouTube. (I prefer this version)  

Here is the US Video...

Leona singing Live on UK television...

Music Video Time

Here are some music videos that I really like. Have a look and let me know what you think!

First up is the Divine Goddess herself Mimi with her fantastically fun video for her new single "Touch My Body." Mariah really delivers are great performance here this is one of my absolute favorite videos of the past 5 years. It is so fun and definitely Mimi come on she has a unicorn in it! I love it!

 

Here is the new single by Goldfrapp entiled "A&E" off their recently released album Seventh Tree. This video strikes be as a what you would imagine if you were high on acid or chronically sleep deprived like me. You have to watch it it is very basic and simple but very creative and fun to watch.

 

Now here is a flashback to 1991 for what I consider to be one of the best music video ever created directed by the incredible Herb Ritts. It is "Wicket Game" by Chris Isaak. The artistry in the video really inspires me every time I watch it. This video has been copied by like the likes of Paris Hilton who did not display near the artistic quality or sensual power. Notice their lips never touch and it is so erotic and so sensual.

New Janet...Ms. Jackson If Ya Nasty!

This is the video for Janet's new single "Rock With You" from her new #1 selling album Discipline. I love the mellow electronic vibe it is great! The lighting and styling in this video is just beautiful! I've got this one on repeat how about you?

"Strobe lights make everything sexier!"

Fashion

I love fashion especially the classics from great photographers like Irving Penn and Herb Ritts. My favorites are Steven Klein and Annie Leibovitz who are absolutely amazing.

Spring/Summer 2008 D&G Ad Campaign shot by Steven Klein

One word...STUNNING! I think Dolce & Gabbana has the best fashion ads of all they are always fresh and just whimsical true art. The ads often seem like Renaissance period art or ultra modern chic and really speak to me. They really do portray a lifestyle of sensual awareness and living life to the fullest.

LIBs

The Return of LIBs

Good Morning World! I have not been able to make any new posts because I am too caught up studying my tail off for exams that seem to mean nothing to me. But being up for 20 hours a day probably means that I do care about it or that I am forced to care out of guilt or something of the sort.

I have been trawling the internet looking for new people to meet but I have not been successful. Apparently all the good looking intelligent people have left the planet! Send Help!

Where have all the good men gone? I am one of them but it seems like we are in sort supply very short supply. I am trying to be honest with myself about who I am but it seems everyone else is just going through the motions and hoping to just go through life unchanged. It's a journey it is gonna be good it is gonna be bad it's gonna make you sick most of the time. But it is important for us to acknowledge who we are in order to actually be happy. I am still working on it and hope you are too.

LIBs